<=== That use to be me... All day everyday... It didn't matter to me what others said .. (when they were saying nice things) It was like I couldn't hear them.. I didn't want to hear them.. I felt like shit.. I was not happy with myself.. and no one was going to change my mind!Like i said.. when people would say nice things to me or about me.. I wouldn't take it.. "You look really nice today J" they would say... "hmmm na, I had no idea what to wear, my make up is shocking.." etc.. I just wouldn't take the compliment..
Before my defrag we were having a surprise birthday for a couple of friends at Chardonaye and B's house.. I was running totally late.. didn't really have time to concentrate on my make up or what i was wearing and i done a rush job.. I got to chardy and B's house and looked in the mirror and holi moli did i over do on the bronzer! I was so paranoid.. I suddenly felt out of place and didn't even want to be there.. I kept asking everyone do i look too dark.. a couple of peeps were like no you look fine.. but i knew i was on my way to orange.. yet i needed someone else to tell me that.. Finally i asked chardy and she was like yep get a flannel and just soak it in water and dab.. So i did...
After that i asked another friend.. ill call her... budgie.. (shes greeeat at budgets lol) so yeah i said to budgie.. does it look better... "waaayyyy better" lol... its funny.. i think she had told me i looked fine before i dabbed and then just the way she replied just then i knew i was good... Sometimes your friends don't know how to say that your face needs fixing or that top looks not cool!.. its not that they want you to look terrible.. they just don't know how to say it..
Remember to always give an honest opinion.. that's why were are asking.. and if we are asking to just fish for compliments and a friend tells you something needs to change.. don't hate... YOU ASKED ...
After that i saw Chardys mumma.. she so awesome.. and she was like oh J you look so nice tonight.. i was like hmm na (sheeshhh) made up some excuse and shes like.. "why do you always do that.. you are a beautiful girl... TAKE the compliment" lol... in my head i was like nah.. you
shoulda seen my face like 5 minutes ago .... but i said aloud "ohh kay... thanks".. and smiled..Since then i have kept chardys mummas advise in my head and have tried to take the compliments people give.. its still pretty hard but i try..
Moral of this story is.. what you see is not always what others see.. its hard to accept that you are beautiful.. its easy to accept you are not?
Listen to chardys mumma and take the compliment.. and hopefully you too will start seeing what they see..
Have a great day
- J
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